Good Morning Everyone,
I hope you are all doing well. Wasn't last night amazing? I was so
encouraged and challenged.
How about you? What ministered to you? Any prayer requests
this week? Anyone need accountability?
I hope you are all doing well. Wasn't last night amazing? I was so
encouraged and challenged.
How about you? What ministered to you? Any prayer requests
this week? Anyone need accountability?
I do have a question. Was there a due date given for our new book?
Love you all, Rachel
Hello, I am new to blogland, and when I see Blackbutterfly or Namo, I have no idea how to tell who they are. How do I tell? :-) I clicked on the "contributors" links, but didn't see any hidden secret information. Please reveal yourselves ;-)
ReplyDeleteI feel a little overwhelmed with all the information we are receiving. 7 mini sermons last night, the current book, the current memory verses, sermons from Sundays, sermons from the conference. I just need prayer that I would hear from the Lord on what He is saying right now and to not feel guilty for not applying all of it. I don't want to miss the point of gaining a deeper relationship with Jesus. Thank you :-)
OK, this may take a little. Back in October 09 I started having this dream of me driving over White Pass and going over a cliff landing in a snow bank. I was in my El Camino and landed so softly that noting on the car or myself was injured. I got out of the car and looked up the hill seeing a cave. I took my book bag and made for the cave. When inside I found it completely provisioned with food, a bed and a table and chair. There was enough food for a year and plenty of fresh water flowing through the cave. I began to come out of the dream with me sitting at the table studying the Bible. I continued to have this same dream for a couple of weeks.
ReplyDeleteThen the dream changes a little. I go off the road, land safely, and find the cave, but this time there is electricity in the cave with more furniture, and I have clothes with me when I get out of the car. There is hot and cold running water and a stove and refrigerator. I spend my day praying and studying the Bible and doing something else but I don't know what. Again, the dreams ends with me studying the Bible.
In December I am still having this dream, but it changes again. This time I have the internet and a computer, and I know that I am praying for three hours a day, studying for three hours and then I see myself writing about what I'm learning for three hours. I do this each day Monday through Friday. As the dreams ends I've been in the cave for a year and I am climbing out and up the hill to return home.
Now, this is what I believe God is saying in these dreams. God has called me to pray, study and write about what I learn for three each day Monday through Friday for the next year. He has shown me He will take care of my provisions as He has already stored them away for me like in the cave. He has a place for me to do this that is quiet and away from the distractions of the world. I already have a computer I can use but will need internet access.
I talked with Cliff Baker when he and Nancy were here and he suggested I get a space that is not in my home so that I can get away from distractions and have a place that is like work to go to. I have been trying to do this at home and he is right there are too many distractions. So, I'm looking for a room some place that I can get in an out of without disrupting others. It needs to have internet access for studying. It could be an unused office, a room in someone's home, even a place I could park my motor-home and still use the computer. I simply need the space so I can get started.
If you know of someone who might be able to help talk with them and let me know so I can contact them. This is the most out there that I've ever felt directed to go and it has me fearful, but just as we were told last night I have to move forward and trust God. Please pray for me and these needs. Thanks.
I know what you mean Felicia. Last night was awesome but kind of overwhelming hearing all those testimonies/sermons!
ReplyDeleteI want to be able to grow in God and really take those things to heart as well. But I want to focus on what God has for me right now. Where he's leading right now.
I'll be praying that you can just experience what he wants for your right now, one step at a time so you don't feel guilty or like you're not doing "good enough". Cause you are. :)
And Rachel, I don't think they've given us a due date yet for the book.
Wow, Bob. Those are amazing dreams and sounds like God already has it all covered...I will pray that you find what He already has for you in the way of a "secret place" with internet access!
ReplyDeleteJulie, glad you are home and feeling better. Thank you for your prayers! You are a treasure. God's abundant peace to you. When we were praying for you last night, I felt God's nearness over you and enveloping you with His peace and love. Be enveloped today in Him!!!
Hi everyone,
ReplyDeleteI am a loner, mostly...trying to come out of my shell, so this will be good! Thanks for your messages. I am in Felicia's boat, so Felicia, if you feel like you're rowing alone and going in circles, please be encouraged. We are actually all in the same boat, it's one of those long canoe type boats that are used in competition. We are all sitting there in the boat, each with our oar, and in unity we are rowing and gaining momentum, and we will WIN!
Oh, yes! I am so completely enveloped in the peace of God as He, as The Great Physician is performing surgery on my heart. He has been answering my prayers that He get rid of ALL pride in me. As He has literally yanked it out by the deepest roots, He has been revealing to me the dung/fertilizer of a life of deep disappointments that have broken my heart while I have been too full of pride to acknowledge the devestation and reckage. Yes, I have pressed in to do so, but pride has kept me from truly, completely admitting to God or man the complete truth of my utter brokenness. By my simply beginning to confess to Caleb and Gary the most current disappointment I have experienced, it opened a floodgate of dammed up disappointment that I have locked away too deep to find until this day. My Daddy, my God, my Father has been holding me tightly against His chest, as I have been crying out and weeping on His shoulder all day. There is no pride left in me to check my sharing this with you. This is way beyond the realm of self pity. I am just experiencing the perfect Love of a Father/Bride Groom/Mother who is not absent or broken and who cares completely about my broaken heart.
ReplyDeleteThank you, all, for your prayers and visits to the ER and text messages and phone calls. God's perfect love and faithfulness are being reflected in you all!
In the natural there are tests to be run, etc. I am trusting God that all is well with me. I am surrounded by loving, concerned voices that are urging me to more immeadiate medical intervention, but God has been speaking to me, "Trust Me completely!" and speaking to me that my people pleasing must end here and now. So be it!
I covet your continued prayers as I remain under His perfect care.
So much love to you all. God bless you.
PS And an important one, with this experience God has given me clear vision to see, in a new way, the Gifts He has poured out in your lives. With each person who came in to the ER to see me, it was as though a wall or a veil had been torn away from between you and me, and I could see each one of you as God sees you. You are lovely, beloved of God, holy and without blame! Each one in that circle of love last night, I see you all so clearly. How precious and lovely you are, and what gifts you have to give!
Okay, I've never done this blog thing either. It's hard for me to share much, but I'm getting there. I really appreciate everybody opening up and letting us know where you're all at. Alot of the time, I feel like an outcast, because of life experiences, thinking that I'm all alone and that others just wouldn't understand...but, I'm realizing through others sharing that we're all some what in the same place, dealing with life, and striving for something more, JESUS! So thank you all again for being forthright, it is encouraging to me. I have a very addictive personality, and for most of my life it has not been for the right things...My prayer request is that keep reaching for Our Father's glorious addiction. It's the only thing REAL and TRUE. He has changed my life tremendously, thankyou JESUS! However, I still struggle with side effects, from the past...I'll be alittle vulnerable here, tomorrow the Jan. 21st, is an extremely hard date for me. So many memories flood my mind. Unfortunately, I am very good at shutting down, and isolating, which we've been learning is not healthy at all. If you feel led, I could probably use some prayer throughout tomorrow...perservence, courage, comfort, love..whatever He puts on your heart, I'll take. I appreciate you all, and love ya' way more than I've probably ever led on...This race were runnin', is so worth it...KEEP GOING! and, if you fall(which I know I have,) that's alright, GET UP, DUST YOURSELF OFF AND LET'S GO. WE'RE GOING TO MAKE IT!
ReplyDeleteWhat (has) ministered to you?
ReplyDeleteThis week I learned a little bit about tango. This taught me about God loving me. That when we live it is likened to a dance... letting God lead, trusting He won't hurt us, laughing when we step each others toes, not being fearful of being close to Him and it's even fun.
Any prayer requests this week?
1. That I would have increased discernment, listening ears and knowledge of how to move in love.
2. I need a friend who I can talk to that I can meet with regularly whose mad in love with God. I guess so that I'd have someone to be accountable too here in Bangkok. I've enjoyed keeping in touch with people back home (you guys, my family and intercessors).
3. I also worry that I'm a bit impulsive in sending things over the internet. I realized this morning I'm fearful of hurting someone when I bear my burdens out for them to see. That I'm not a burden... cause I equate what I feel and experience with my identity.
4. That the spiritual laziness and tiredness that I experience in the natural and supernatural would be lifted. Worship.
Julie Y: Thanks for sharing how God's opened your eyes, torn the veil, awesome to hear of your physical and spiritual healing of the heart.
Felicia: Although I'm not doing everything each of you for DS um I'm struggling with knowing how to prioritize too. Wondering how to have BEING time versus being lazy.
I am mistaken. What I see in you are not "gifts" but, rather, your "inheritance"!
ReplyDeletesorry namo was short for naomi moss but i changed it love you guys
ReplyDeleteGina, I am in prayer for you. I see you, and you are holy and blameless before Him in Love. You are completely accepted in the Beloved. It is finished. There is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus! Come out and play! I am coming out too. I will see you there dancing on the mountain tops with your Beloved. Gettin' jiggy with it!
ReplyDeleteYou too, Rene, I love the picture of you and Jesus doing the tango together, cheek to cheek, stepping on one anothers' toes and laughing together. That's beautiful! Please do continue to be generous with your unveiling of yourself. You are so lovely. How can we bear one another's burdens if we don't bare our burdens? I am praying...
Felicia, I have been feeling overwhelmed too! Much of that has lifted today as I have heard the voice of the Father saying, "Come, let me have it ALL, I AM here and will NEVER leave you nor forsake you! I AM not broken and I will heal you completely as you trust Me completely. And I will accomplish that, which I have begun in you. I AM faithful."
He is saying that to each one of us.
Bob, God's provision for you is complete. Walk in it!
Julie M., I understand what you mean about wanting to take those things to heart.
Let nothing stop you! Take your inheritance in deeply. It is ALL for you.
Karma, First of all, you are a warrior. Your strength is the Lord's. I see you fully armed, a valient warrior, full of courage born out of sharing in Christ's sufferings. You are also a grain, broken on the ground and ready to sprout. The harvest will be a great abundance of life and love!
Praying...for you all.
Thanks, Naomi. Thank you for your love!
ReplyDeletejulie Y. you truely are a blessing!
ReplyDeleteHi Everyone,
ReplyDeleteI need prayer when it comes to understanding Gods love. Since the conference with Cliff I have realized that I have never had an encounter with the love that God gives like he was talking about. This causes great sadness, anger and even depression at times. I find myself getting annoyed with those who have experienced this love and joy for that matter. I try to hide my sadness/depression but I need to let go and let God. This is a difficult thing for me since I dont feel my own dad was ever around. I know that God loves me in my head but I really need to know it in my heart. I want a lasting encounter with His love. I find myself getting caught up in all the doing and not so much the being still and waiting. In fact that really scares me. I'd rather be given a task then just be still and let God love me. So I ask that you would pray that I might grasp how wide, how deep, how long His love is for me. Blessing to you all, - Rachel
I wish I had more time to post now. I am at work and struggle greatly with being on task. But for now, I am amazed at all of you being vulnerable. Way to go! May God reward you for it. Thank all of you for creating a safe place, hopefully I will be able to open up more as our blog continues. I believe that as we continue to share, the Lord is going to form a true family among us that will be an example of what He really meant when He ordained the Family of God. You are all a blessing! Much love!
ReplyDeleteThanks again for your messages and for your transparent hearts ...this is a big help for me. I am feeling my walls of self-protection, or whatever they are, start to crumble around my feet. I feel shakey and afraid, of what I don't know. Everything that I have known, or the way I have done things, is getting stripped from me, which is ultimately good, but right now I feel really scared.
ReplyDeleteIf you feel led, please pray for our natural circumstances. Chuck has been without a "real" job for well over a year. Actually thinking about it, I can't even remember who he last worked for. There is something that needs to be broken. Many of you know that he was offered a maintenance position at Hampton Inn & Suites, which is right down the street from where we live, and of course he accepted it. About the same time, he started having back pain and it was discovered that he had a torn disk and a pinched nerve, so instead of allowing him a week or so to heal, they took his job away from him. I'm questioning God's will because we fought hard for this job, naturally & spiritually. This has been the cycle...he gets a job and then for whatever reason, he gets let go..over and over and over again. Understandably, he is afraid to even try again.
In November, I lost my job..a good job working nights, sleeping (sort of) and making decent money doing it. So we are both unemployed and looking for work. There are also some other financial situations: 4 law suits, 1 lost/3 pending. I can't take much more before I literally crack. This is naturally speaking. I am really starting to "get it" that God is WAY bigger than any of this, so I am learning how to rest under the shadow of the Almighty. What's difficult is handling reality. Anyway, thanks for all of your "ears".
Rachel and Karma, I want you both to know that I have noted your prayer requests and am pressing in on your behalf.
ReplyDeleteYou are all in my prayers.
Gina, How did the 21st go? I hope you felt His love and peace cheering you on. There is so much more for you. Raaaaahhhhhrrrrrr!
ReplyDeleteHello Dear Loves:
ReplyDeleteI've enjoyed reading your posts and would like to give you some new things to think about.
First, we are in the "the baby is about to be delivered" stages or the "30 seconds old baby" stages of a revival. If you read the book of Joel the pattern is God reveals sin and the conditions of Israel (or the church) from HIS perspective. Daddy scolds His kids and they deserve it. The second part is where anyone who has heard His voice, who has a teachable heart, who really wants to please Him, and really wants to change on HIS terms goes into a state of mourning and deep repentance. The people start to see the TRUTH about their own condition and the TRUTH on how serious that is from God's perspective. A lot of us are going through that right now. Some of you are still stuck in the, "It's all about me--what do I get out of this?" mode. That attitude is selfishness (pride)and is blocking your progress and making the process longer. The changes we go through will certainly benefit us, but it must be about pleasing Him. We are children of the King. As children we have great freedom and privileges, but it still must to ALL ABOUT HIM and HIS DESIRES--HIS WILL. When we choose to live our life from that perspective, we start to mature and deliverance comes quicker.
All of you have leadership potential and the DS leaders all felt that God wanted us to work with you for that reason. We were originally only going to chose a handful of you for one-on-one mentoring, but we looked at each other (Gary, Caleb, and me) and said can't we mentor them all? I feel that was God's doing.
Being a leader in a revival and in a kingdom-based lifestyle is a very heavy responsibility. Everything I do with you, I do with "fear and trembling" and by keeping as close to God and Gary as possible because I know my own weaknesses and I know how serious making mistakes can be for you. I cannot allow my life to be "All about me" because it will interfere with "your highest good". Hanging on to "all about me" prevents me from loving you on God's terms.
I believe a full manifestation of revival is going to break out soon. When new Christians come into the family, we need a small army of leaders to disciple them effectively on "GOD's terms" without religion and without setting up "our own kingdoms". Tag your it-- you are part of that small army. For God to use you, you need to be very deeply in love with Him, listening to every word He says and allowing that love to flow through you to even the unlovely. So I encourage you to go in red hot pursuit of your Daddy God. Let Him in there to heal your pain and resolve you past. He knows exactly what to do and He has your highest good in mind. Don't settle for mediocre religion anymore.
I challenge you to start going through your day connecting with God on HIS terms and making your worship, family interactions, work and all other activities "All about Him".
Love you so much!
Jan,
ReplyDeleteYour comment is very thought-provoking and heart-stirring. I am wondering if it might be better served as a new post? Then people could comment specifically to this. Just a thought :-)
Hi All,
ReplyDeleteI was thinking this evening about Gary's suggestion about getting together with Joshua Smith and I got this thought: I'm sure I'm not the only one interested in receiving help with scripture memorization. I struggle greatly with memorization because I have some kind of undiagnosed learning disability that is kind of like a mild form of dyslexia or something...anyway, I would like to invite him over to my house with all of you who would like to hear what he has to say specifically about memorizing scripture. That way he could go through it once with all of us. Then if we still need individual help we could seek him out then on our own. What say ye?